Everything feels unavoidable. I feel like I’m sweltering in this hole, this cell, this place, caught in between two vastly different parts of my life. I’m panicking, and realizing that I’m so alone, right now. And no amount of words of encouragement, or people telling me any advice, or that everything will be okay, is helping. I’m just… trapped. I feel just… abandoned, essentially. I am without some of the people that matter most to me. And that’s okay, I guess I always did well on my own, but this is the first time that I’m really without these people. It’s so hard to realize that these people are gone, for me,but it takes time. I am simply.
College, I have been told, will be fun.
Today’s Daily Gratitude is for time, although it may be my jailor, at least allows me enough time in this cell to think. Whether that is good or bad, it really doesn’t matter. What matters is that it’s happening. And for that, I am grateful.