So today was very terrifying for a good part of the day.
I freaked out a little bit, after realizing how difficult next week is going to be (or at least I thought it was going to be).
It turns out I’ve been suppressing my feelings lately, and my stress, and all of my anxieties. They all sort of… burst out.
So, today, I dealt with them. I dealt with all of my anxieties. It seems that through suppression, I attempted to achieve some sort of false peace. I was lying to myself in order to feel less stressed.
It almost worked, too, until I realized that all of the anxieties were still there. There is no safety in false peace. We must struggle with ourselves in order to achieve actual peace. We have to deal, head on, with the things that cause us pain, struggle, and strife, in order for peace to exist in our hearts. It is in no way, shape or form easy. It’s not supposed to be. But it is worth it.
I learned, or possibly relearned, all of that today. So now, I’m finally doing better.
It’s been an eventful day.